"Night" post

Friday, December 22, 2017:

Today was actually a good day! Laying in bed, I can't hardly remember what happened... which is usually good because that means it was productive. I had lunch with a family friend as well as my sister and mother. I slept from 2:30-4 pm and was held down by a cat on my chest for about an hour. I moved too much so he finally got up and I got up and shortly after my family went to look at Christmas lights. It was a nice experience.  And then I have been chilling in bed ever since.

Scandalous news of the day: "I am not a hoe" is my mantra, but it's hard to stick with at times. I'm "casually dating" one guy and am having problems with how I speak to other guys. I am struggling with being "loyal" to one person, which I think comes from me treating the ex rapist like garbage, as if we weren't dating. I'm used to blowing off relationships and am not into a serious relationship ability in my point of life.

Life fact: I became single on May 18, 2015 from a rapist who i dated for a total of about 5.5 years. I didn't treat him right, because he didnt treat me right.